endless complications

i seriously do not know why iam not feeling sad. i know i should be feeling sad but i just cant. but at the same time, iam not too sure if i should be feeling sad. life has been quite complicated. starting a commitment with uncertainties. struggling to sustain and maintain the almost completed life story. frustrations and annoyed by the actions of some irresponsible and brainless humans. the slight change of character of someone close due to the huge amount of responsibilities and fatigue. cant bear to see the pain she has to go through. enduring all sorts of nonsense!

despite of all these, i am thankful to have someone by the side. someone whom i can turn to. a God's gift from heaven. my only concern is the possibilities of more complications which may arise from these.