a lost friend

it has been more than 2 weeks now since felicia or commonly known as 'gayah' went missing. the article in Berita Harian yesterday reminded me again. it's terrifying to know how a person could just dissapear in a minute. and this article really saddens me. my bro, shahid, who is her classmate was one the many people who have helped searching for her.

REMAJA HILANG (an article from Berita Harian, 18th July 2007, pg 2)

SEORANG remaja perempuan berusia 19 tahun, Felicia Teo Wei Ling, dilaporkan hilang sejak 29 Jun lalu.

Dia kali terakhir dilihat keluar untuk ke tempat kerja sekitar 6 petang dari flatnya di Blok 233 Bain Street.

Semalam, polis mengeluarkan kenyataan media meminta orang ramai yang mempunyai maklumat mengenai Teo agar menghubungi pihak polis.

Teo berketurunan Cina, setinggi 1.6 meter, berbadan kurus dan mempunyai kulit yang agak gelap. Rambutnya hitam dan pendek.

Keluarga Teo memberitahu akhbar Lianhe Wanbao bahawa Teo dijadualkan menghadiri majlis perkahwinan rakannya pada 30 Jun lalu.

Namun, dia dikatakan tidak menghadiri majlis perkahwinan itu.

Adiknya, Teo Wei De, 18 tahun, berkata kakaknya itu merupakan pelajar tahun pertama Maktab Seni LaSalle-SIA.

Sejak kehilangannya, sekitar 100 rakan dan saudara-maranya telah mencarinya di kawasan yang dikatakan sering dikunjunginya iaitu di Marine Parade, Clarke Quay dan East Coast.

Orang ramai yang mempunyai maklumat mengenai Teo diminta menghubungi hotline polis di 1800-255-0000.

how ironic!

A list of things about sulaiman which you probably wouldn't be dying to know:

oh ok or at least to those who were born in march... for that matter:

MARCH
* Attractive personality
* Affectionate
* Shy and reserved
* Secretive
* Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic
* Loves peace and serenity
* Sensitive to others
* Loves to serve others
* Not easily angered
* Trustworthy
* Appreciative and returns kindness
* Observant and assess others
* Revengeful
* Loves to dream and fantasize
* Loves traveling
* Loves attention
* Loves home decors
* Musically talented
* Loves special things
* Moody

Traditional Aries Traits
*Adventurous and energetic
*Pioneering and courageous
*Enthusiastic and confident
*Dynamic and quick-witted
*Selfish and quick-tempered
*Impulsive and impatient
*Foolhardy and daredevil

ARIES
Outgoing, lovable, spontaneous, not one to mess with. Funny,
excellent kisser EXTREMELY adorable, loves relationships,
addictive, loud.
(taken from an email sent by yana)

i know it sounds ironic but i usually dont update or even bother to read through horoscopes. but at times when i did, it just makes sense. i mean iam not refering to the qualities or characteristics aspects. but merely, the daily events one goes through. iam just amazed by how it is able to predict life and actual accounts of your real life. and the most amazing thing is that iam now kinda hook with it.

how ironic.

anyways, back to actual real life. celebrated rachel's birthday after NDP NE show 1 yesterday. met kieran, jonathan, idris, aundrey, niki, wu shen and rachel at istana park. hmmm.. i always like birthday celebrations. such a joyous event.




and while waiting for our show, Harry Potter at 2.25am, we sat in circle just outside cathay. and we played the panda game. err i know it might sound a bit lame, but after rachel successfully explained the game, we found the game, erm quite addictive ah. hah. and of course, being with these ppl were just great lah. laugh and laugh. hah. hmmm.. somehow i realise how many great ppl are around me and i feel so blessed.

in contemplation

was with the uncle at ite college east attending a concert organised by ite and cemta. met a couple of familiar faces here and there. i think i enjoyed the company more than the concert. or at least if we talk about the performance, i admire the live band and percussions more than anything else. erm then i think you should know what iam trying to imply right...? heh




while having dinner, we chatted over some urgent matters. and the conversation left me in deep comtemplation and perhaps a few percentage of guilt. but i guess i had to leave it to the one who is responsible for everything that had happened. and i have come to the conclusion that i should not, however, make any more efforts. perhaps i ll leave it to time and see how things fall into place.

ratizayidelfida and bib and raud

finally ratizayidelfida reunite again. this time with biba and raudah. and as usual, it was chaotic! haha... well just as we met, elfi was explaining how different each one of us now. i mean it wasnt very long ago since we last met each other ah. just that he kept complaining that me and ayid are shrinking. iza kept pleasing everyone that i wasnt always late as usual and stuff... hah.





so went to cine@ L9 at cineleisure to book a room and watch dvd. and at first we were all so excited and all. the choice, at first was, american haunting and dreamgirls. and according to vote, it was american haunting. and damn... ok first it was not so scary as we thought it would be. secondly, the plot was soo damn complicated. and we all went like... huh? what? who was that guy? so who rapped the girl? yeah... and the funny thing is that each one of us were trying to make sense of the whole story by trying to come out with our own explainations and stuff....

duh.






yeah... the last two pics we were suppose to look dumb. but as it seems... really cannot make it lar... hah

specially for our dearest mom

a special celebration for a special person.

mcnally street, serene center and marina bay

so i had to return the convocation attendance letter to the college. and ya, went to the new building of lasalle at macnally street. semester begins this august at the new college. but i have to say that the college is only 60% done. yah. but it sure looks cool.





was helping my classmate, shin yin who needed some help with her model shooting audition at serene center, ferrer road. the audition was kinda cool. looking at model wannabes posing awkwardly in front of the camera. some giggling away. a few went out of ideas. and of course, i stole some of their time taking some... erm... good photographs... hee.. well whats a photographer for? hee...






and we had the family day cum NE show at marina bay. and it was super cool! you can view our performance here. courtesy of zam, of course, who else can i depend on when it comes to these kinda thing. hah.

blah blah...

the change of plan to junction 8 instead of vivo by kieran was a brilliant one. erm besides being able to meet mike lah at coffee bean. hah. well the place has changed a lot. it has been years since i last visited junction 8.



yeah, we were like lil kids, slamming those buttons and controlling those steerings and guns.







but i guess the best part of the day, besides watching transformers and meeting mike, was to watch idris pierce his ears. haha. yeah. me, kieran and rachel were literally forcing idris to pierce his ears. hah. and of course he ended up doing it. without much hesitation, finally. woah... eh wait wait. we are not trying to encourage him ok. we are just trying to fulfil his cravings. haha.

and oh, before we went back home, mike brought up some issues. and idris said something quite comforting. iam glad that they know the truth. mmm...

enduring with life

there were many times in my life where i felt cheated. cheated by people around me. i often question myself why such things happen. why are they neccessary in life. there were also times when people tell lies. so much that i feel like killing myself.

i have to admit that i do tell lies myself sometimes. but i just cant understand and tolerate a person who tell lies each and every day without feeling guilty or ashame.

i chatted with bear over these issues. he too faced the same situations. unlike him, i am not the type of person who could read or understand people merely from their weird conversations. whatever that is happening, is way too much. i am at the verge of excluding him. i do feel guilty. but taking it seriously, i had enough of all these games. i am tired of pretending that everything is fine. i am tired of smiling at him when i know, deep down inside that something is wrong. i am tired of listening to your lies and pretending that i believe you.

sometimes i am ashamed of myself. i dont know why. maybe because iam doing something which i know that is not right. my close friends have been pestering me to rectify the situation. and yes, i am trying to rectify and solve the problem. and now, i am at a point where iam telling myself that i am not going to work any harder to solve the problem because it has always been me who is trying so hard to solve the problem.

maybe i am not tyring hard enough. or maybe iam applying the wrong method. but above all, i guess the reason why the problem has never been able to solve is because i am the only one making effort. and seriously, iam tired.

maybe theres no point to this post. beacuse i realise that there is no point in bringing up the issue anymore. i guess i ll do whatever that is best for me. and not to let such trivial issue put me down. and i know i can.