ratizayidelfida and bib and raud

finally ratizayidelfida reunite again. this time with biba and raudah. and as usual, it was chaotic! haha... well just as we met, elfi was explaining how different each one of us now. i mean it wasnt very long ago since we last met each other ah. just that he kept complaining that me and ayid are shrinking. iza kept pleasing everyone that i wasnt always late as usual and stuff... hah.





so went to cine@ L9 at cineleisure to book a room and watch dvd. and at first we were all so excited and all. the choice, at first was, american haunting and dreamgirls. and according to vote, it was american haunting. and damn... ok first it was not so scary as we thought it would be. secondly, the plot was soo damn complicated. and we all went like... huh? what? who was that guy? so who rapped the girl? yeah... and the funny thing is that each one of us were trying to make sense of the whole story by trying to come out with our own explainations and stuff....

duh.






yeah... the last two pics we were suppose to look dumb. but as it seems... really cannot make it lar... hah

specially for our dearest mom

a special celebration for a special person.

mcnally street, serene center and marina bay

so i had to return the convocation attendance letter to the college. and ya, went to the new building of lasalle at macnally street. semester begins this august at the new college. but i have to say that the college is only 60% done. yah. but it sure looks cool.





was helping my classmate, shin yin who needed some help with her model shooting audition at serene center, ferrer road. the audition was kinda cool. looking at model wannabes posing awkwardly in front of the camera. some giggling away. a few went out of ideas. and of course, i stole some of their time taking some... erm... good photographs... hee.. well whats a photographer for? hee...






and we had the family day cum NE show at marina bay. and it was super cool! you can view our performance here. courtesy of zam, of course, who else can i depend on when it comes to these kinda thing. hah.

blah blah...

the change of plan to junction 8 instead of vivo by kieran was a brilliant one. erm besides being able to meet mike lah at coffee bean. hah. well the place has changed a lot. it has been years since i last visited junction 8.



yeah, we were like lil kids, slamming those buttons and controlling those steerings and guns.







but i guess the best part of the day, besides watching transformers and meeting mike, was to watch idris pierce his ears. haha. yeah. me, kieran and rachel were literally forcing idris to pierce his ears. hah. and of course he ended up doing it. without much hesitation, finally. woah... eh wait wait. we are not trying to encourage him ok. we are just trying to fulfil his cravings. haha.

and oh, before we went back home, mike brought up some issues. and idris said something quite comforting. iam glad that they know the truth. mmm...

enduring with life

there were many times in my life where i felt cheated. cheated by people around me. i often question myself why such things happen. why are they neccessary in life. there were also times when people tell lies. so much that i feel like killing myself.

i have to admit that i do tell lies myself sometimes. but i just cant understand and tolerate a person who tell lies each and every day without feeling guilty or ashame.

i chatted with bear over these issues. he too faced the same situations. unlike him, i am not the type of person who could read or understand people merely from their weird conversations. whatever that is happening, is way too much. i am at the verge of excluding him. i do feel guilty. but taking it seriously, i had enough of all these games. i am tired of pretending that everything is fine. i am tired of smiling at him when i know, deep down inside that something is wrong. i am tired of listening to your lies and pretending that i believe you.

sometimes i am ashamed of myself. i dont know why. maybe because iam doing something which i know that is not right. my close friends have been pestering me to rectify the situation. and yes, i am trying to rectify and solve the problem. and now, i am at a point where iam telling myself that i am not going to work any harder to solve the problem because it has always been me who is trying so hard to solve the problem.

maybe i am not tyring hard enough. or maybe iam applying the wrong method. but above all, i guess the reason why the problem has never been able to solve is because i am the only one making effort. and seriously, iam tired.

maybe theres no point to this post. beacuse i realise that there is no point in bringing up the issue anymore. i guess i ll do whatever that is best for me. and not to let such trivial issue put me down. and i know i can.

jalan bukit setiawangsa, kuala lumpur

spent the last weekend with the uncles and a friend at kuala lumpur. hasn't changed pretty much over there. things were pretty similar. the things that were different were probably the company and the activities we had. but i must say that i enjoyed the trip no doubt there were a few.. erm moments where i felt miserable. well i guess the lesson to learn here is to accept things as they are and people around you for who they really are.

sometimes it made my wonder how far a person could go in order to achieve what they have always wanted. and sometimes things happen beyond our control and that is when we realised how vulnerable we humans are. but sometimes we fail to realise that the incidents happened were actually what we have been waiting for.

first combined rehearsal

video courtesy of zam



was extremely excited throughout the rehearsal. probably because of the new venue in this year's ndp.